Gentle, Dear Child, Gentle
Relax and understand
Realignment is taking place
and it is all for the highest good

Relax now~
Write simple words of wisdoms
whispering from your soul
tender breezes of ancient times
brings you greetings of coming home
back to center
back to wholeness

times for you are shifting
love endured in distant water
now quench your thirst for hope empowered
Home - you're coming home
dreams - all realities - now real
manifest in physical
trust and release all worries and fears.
beauty within is now without the doubt.

child, dearest child
your wishes are our command
think well of your presence
you are love
loved always.

A year ago, I faced one of my greatest fears and successfully beat it...public speaking...though we know it was all an illusion anyway. Still, one year ago, I started my radio program, AIR ~ abstract illusion radio... about exploring and exposing the different aspects of the healing arts. A passion of mine in many ways. Being a healer myself, plus having the curiosity in looking into other methodologies... it fit perfectly for me. I have been blessed with meeting healers, psychics, astrologers from around the world and introduced them to the audience... it started small, yet is growing every week.

Tonight I am having Guy Finley as the guest. He is a motivational speaker, author and he will be talking about his new book, The Essential Laws of Fearless Living. With my face-down a year ago... I think it is very fitting to have this program.

The program is on BBSRadio.com 9pm pst on station one. I invite you to come and listen, join in my celebration. Blessings to all. Hugs~ Jen

In 2000, I started my intuitive website and redid it again in 2004....each time, i put out wonderful intentions and yet something wasn't quite right. i felt it. the last time it was the navigation... it was confusing to some of the visitors to the site.
At the beginning of 2008, I knew it was time to re-design the website and make it all I intended it to be in the first place... and I am quite happy.
It was last weekend, after spending the last week off balanced (vertigo) that I got clarity and knew I must relaunch the website. I was to take questions on my radio program, AIR...which I normally don't mention my businesses or abilities... my guests do it for me. I do appreciate each one of my blessings of new friends.
So I invite you to check out AngelsIntuition.com.
Please email me on here your thoughts and insights on improving the site. Yes, I have a Gaia.com link on there... Under links/recommended.

the new moon in Leo is all about fun, relationships, and involvement... i am throwing myself in the middle and looking forward to the adventure... hope you will join me.
peace and hugs~ Jen

 

Tension is a prerequisite to live creatively. ~A. Meyer

Inspirational Divine. In the last few months, years really... I have been inspired to write down my experiences. A healing process I now find. I have grown and released many of the inner demons of anger, greedy, selfishness, jealousy, envy, and the list can continue on. "I have done the work" as they say. 

Yet, I still question my motivations and those of others. I have learned to have a strong sense of discernment that can be mistrust in people, things and situations. Maybe too strong at times. Not feeling the love...you know what I mean? It doesn't make inspiration come bubbling up the pike towards me.

This morning, my inner being ness/higher self asked what is my pleasure these days. It seems so fitting with the full moon in Scorpio... which is all about pleasure, sex and trust.  I lay in bed, pondering what I desired to experience now?  Good question. Though the process, I have found myself surrendering most of my dreams away or to a different form. I found myself now...dreamless. For a person who lives in creativity and self expression, this is not a good thing. Yet in the same breath, to think I have experienced most of the things I set out to do... wow...that is really cool. A clean slate of inspiration, creation and a new beginning. 

I find myself like many spiritual persons, looking to see what is next for them and with the hard work done; wondering is this when I get to have some "real" fun, real abundance, and the real big one here and the main reason for being on this planet...Love?  Well... I am ready and waiting. I am up for having some good times, yet I had some great times in the years on this planet. I have had some real up and down times...seeing the light and blessings in each one...especially those real down times.

One of the parts of me, probably my soul... wishes for me to write out those times. Oh and also my past lives that have come to visit me again... cleaning up some really bad stuff in my energy field.  My soul loves to express itself through the written word. Another part of me is wondering... are you that starved for attention... for someone to listen and hear what you have to say? Please... well, maybe to write it down is healing that part of me. I have done lots of writing and the thought of organizing it for a book is a bit over whelming for me at this point... I got thousands of pages to organize...and when you are in that space of writing for clearing, releasing and healing... organizing it for a book...isn't top priority for me. That damn Virgo moon of mine has let me down again. Ha.  Now that Sage part of me... she is all for the healing and looking within.  Looking for that higher truth and trust in the Universe at large... then comes my ascending sign...Aries, looking to be the first on the block for this insight or that creative method, plan or scheme. Larger than life attitude...though humbly presence in the now. It is an interesting combination... lots of fire and the earth to keep me from floating away... and my experiences have been the same. Lots of dreams that got the balloon popped.  Did make me wonder what is the purpose here? Hindering my progress or did it?  I have been reflecting a lot of what I was before the "reawakening" and who I am now.  That person before got things done with more organization and thought... she really focused on her goals.  Not so much now and that concerns me.  I do wonder what happen to change this part of me...that Aries action personality that was good to have. She shows up once and a while and doesn't seem to stay for long. I am inviting her to stay longer so I am not leaping and jumping from one project to another and not getting much of anything done... that part of me I desire to return to me now. That scattered part of me... though beautiful in some ways... is not longer required at the juncture in my life.  I desire that drive I once had...she still dwells inside of me... yes; she was driven away by another part of my ego. Yet you would think that was my ego, though I don't think so. I am simply realigning myself to the very best part of me.  That push that got me places that I truly desired and choose to be. It feels like it got sucked out of me somewhere, sometime... or maybe little by little, experience by experience...slowly letting the air out of my balloon... that part of my ego that isn't all that bad to have. Sigh.  I feel the shift within now. I am more proactive now. Becoming that part of me that lives. Achieves and seeing the results of the process at hand. Maybe I needed to stop that part of me to appreciate its essence. Okay... I do. Please breathe in life in me again. Being still is tiring me out...out of boredom.  I got lots of fire energy here... Hello... are you listening in there?  Hmmm... I am not listening to myself...so why in the hell would I think anyone else would be listening to me? Ha. That out of integrity again...with myself. I am not going to beat myself up over this...again. It happens and it is going to happen...not. I am so done with this.

The other night, I received a new contract in a dream or maybe a real old one needed to be completed. It was a pretty thick contract, small print of course... I am asking for the details... that Virgo part is alive and kicking'... yea baby.  I have yet to see inside the envelope. I know of one person who is apart of this contract... or this new agreement or old.  He said he had made me wait far too long and apologized for that. That unconditional love pops in mind here. I asked him for the details and again, he goes silence and turns his back to me...only to turn back to say... I will tell you in person soon. I can't have you waiting anymore for this. I just can't.  Well, I am still waiting for this miracle to happen and it will. These lucid dreams happen for me. Timing?  I have no idea; though he did say he can't have me waiting any more... it has been too long now.  This is truly one of the last things I know I desire to experience.  After this miracle... I will feel free. Truly free. To be released from the past and the future... only in that present moment of time.  And even though I do feel in the presence moment, the mind is one of humanity, wondering into the endless possibilities and now it is time to choose my next grand adventure...

Self Expression... of myself and helping others as well.  As a kid, I had speech problems and dyslexia. Notice I said HAD.  I am now a host of a weekly radio program on exploring and exposing the different aspects and expressions of the healing arts. I have also written and published a book of poetry about my journey.

Overcame my learning disability and moving forward... Having a grand time to boot.  Blessings to you all~ Jen

This last week, I sat in the still and felt the motions of my inner spirit... restless. As if knowing the strength of the stillness in a new form or way. A re-emergence of trust in myself and the Universal Love. I feel different somehow.  A shifting of my reality and I think I like it. Hmmm... yea. I do.
The community expands and contract at the same time and I recognizing more and more the beauty of the stillness and silence within. The insights of my inner world and world living and breathing around me.
The week my brother... oldest of the kids, Pisces and lives silence with humor and art... came to visit the family down in Tucson. I found I related to him or saw him through different eyes. I saw the different masks he wears and the mirror he is for me.  The obligations and true love he has breathing inside of him. Recognizing all the blessings he attracts to himself. 
He knew after one two hour dinner... he had met his future wife. He knew she was the blessing to him after spending so many years looking and living... she showed up in his town after their paths had crossed for a decade or more without meeting. Mutual friend suggested they meet. the cast was made at first meeting. He saw only the inner beauty of her... her soul and the two have been together for close to 25 years now.  I feel such happiness for him... at recognizing the gift before him and going for it without a second thought.
This only strengthens my heart and soul on my path. the knowingness of all that I have attracted into my life and the lessons learned. How very blessed I am. Thank you for your presence and essence in my life and being a part of my journey. Namaste~ Jen

Luck of the Irish be with you...today and everyday.

This weekend, I spend both days at a psychic fair... available for readings... Also available to talk to just about everyone there. I exchanged readings with a few and made some connections for the radio show and came to realized how closed this part of my life was.
I lost money on the weekend. Doing psychic readings is slowing and steady coming to a close or changing forms in some ways. I know my thoughts created this reality. It is one of those things that you think it will be great to change and now it is.... and there seems to be a void now. a sadness with it passing. I enjoy giving readings and doing the coaching, yet a part of me has let go of it and fine with the end. My abilities are stronger now and shifting into other things becoming possible.
I am in that space though...like many... asking what have I created. Let me remember now what I was creating to replace this...what was it? hmmm and the feeling of uncomfortness creeps in for a moment as does the unknown. I scream! What have I done?! and then laugh at all the possible things to do and the passions yet to be investaged. Like actually, really learning to trust the Universe and myself. that was the scream...lack of trust and the laughter was the trust that I truly have. The little jolt of reality as I realize bills are due and bank account is low. I know I am fine.
the shifts are here now and manifestations of the next adventure are upon me now. Yahoo... A deep breath in with total joy and excitement and breath out with all the anxiety and uncertainty. All the blessings and lessons are in focus and time for the evolution of my creation continues... peace~ Jen

Sweet whispers of the Universal Love
Calls me within
Sit still, my Child
Understand the rhythm of your soul
In time with the music of the heartbeat of all

The oneness winds through the echos of the souls' void
All the possibilities, all the presence and essences of Spirit
in the vast realms of the emptiness of mind
The immense silence wraps her tender, gently arms around
Trusting the moment's realities of time and space being
the richness of color of colorlessness

sitting on the edge of time
wondering and wandering all the limitlessness of space
seeing and feeling the grand beauty in the bliss
why oh why
can't it be...
can it or no...
the mind dizzy with the possibility
of having it all or desiring this presence
wholely and completely on earth

return to the present moment of time
sitting on the edge of a mesa
the red stone bursting out in splendor
the sky raditating out blueness of earth
a heart beat away from both
and converging together at the same time

breathe in that moment
expanding the remembrance of innocence and beyond.

A friend asked the question What is Enlightenment in one of the community discussion panel.  It has been interesting and enlightening to witness the conversations between the members involved in the discussion and open dialog between like minded individuals interaction in community. Beautiful, actually.

I thought as a finished reading a few more replies and insightful questions about my enlightenment moments.... some are beyond words to describe... even in feelings... they linger only in the Silence of my Soul, bringing my True Self to the surface if only for that brief moment of beauty.  Lingering in that sacred place within the Being... the true soul essence.

Other moments are sheer brilliance of the Universe's cosmic humor.  Ones that only can lead you to laugh at yourself and with yourself at the pure genius in the moment.  For example, you asked the Universe for a new reality... for me, it was paying off my car loan. Simple, right?  Well, within a few months, I flipped my car ( mechnical problems) and totalled car... the car got paid off alright... yet i fail to mention that I desire to still have the car in my use when making this request.  So I tried again... I asked to pay off the car. This time I thought I had asked in a better way... and I did... in a way. thought the result were still the same.... Another car accident... this time a head on collision with a drunk driver. You might think... she had got it made. Nope... this man was involved in, let's say possible illegal actions and therefore hid all his assets... So the GAP program I got with this car with my insurance paid off my car, still leaving me without a  car. This time I didn't have to pay the difference of the car loan immediately as I did with the last one.  You can only laugh at this. Lessons in the proper ways of  manifesting your  heart's  desire.  By the way, I did buy  my car... through  refinancing my house... and I still have my car. Yahoo!

Others moments of enlightenment....The connection with nature.... holding a hummingbird which had dropped off the feeder at your feet on your birthday. It was a very cold day.  I held this precious messenger of joy and movement... not feeling a heart beat. I prayed for this tiny jem to live.  To feel its heart begin to beat again. To see its eyes open and its tongue sticking out... pure enlightenment and joy. Life at its essence and transforming my life. The connection.  This bird stayed in my hands, closed to my heart for nearly an hour.  It finally flew away, yet still comes around the house. A gentle reminder of the joy in my life.

From death to life... and life to death... Having a connection with my dog, Stone. Learning from watching him and his response to situations. Feeling the love and healing of him. He was my shadow self in physical form... my inner child that needed attention and got it from me. Lessons with him came to an end far too soon and I held this dog who I loved so much and watched the life drain from his body... He was my shadow, my protector and constant companion... now still with his eyes spinning as his time waning down his time in physical form. Makes one appreciate the time with others and the time we are here on this plane. To understand the silence whispering of your inner voice need to be heard and attend to.

To touch a tree and burst into tears from its pain of being trimmed without thought. I only apologize to the carelessness of others. Stay with the tree and give it comfort and time of being heard and witnessed. I appreciate the connection with all of Nature and Mother Earth, having more respect for their presence and wisdoms.

I have witnessed the transformation of so many people achieving the dreams and it fills me with great joy. And with myself... seeing the transformation of the embracing the Divinity within myself.  To open a book, The Oneness Blessing by Arjuni Ardagh, receiving the blessing simply by opening and receive this blissful energy... brought me to tear and a vision showing that I need to appreciate what I have done, the ways I have helped others...focus on the gifts I offer others and not so much of the things that didn't happen... Appreciate the journey I am on with fullness and joy. Enlightenment from Enlightened Beings. 

I have witnessed the transformation of many achieving thier dreams and it fills me with great joy... And witnessing my own transformations...embracing the Divinity within... indescribable.
The gratitude and love gained through each different moment, each experience are enlightenment that brings me a warming smile on my face and in my heart  with love and thanks to each that has touched my life so gracious.  Blessings to each of you. Namaste~ Jen